changes

i'm in the wake of another change. work life this time. it will change the time i wake up in the morning, people that i will share a cup of coffee with while chatting over family life. it will change the type of patients i see and talk to. it will change my boss, my clothes and when i get to eat and pee.

i feel good about it though. for the longest time i thought i was done. done with nursing. done with the orders, the nausea the blood counts. so i changed then. i sat at a desk for 3+ years. i emailed and had conversations over the phone with patients. occasionally i would see them and do a little one on one teaching. this is what i needed though. this is what i craved. i needed from the intesity, a distance to let the acute care sizzle on my nervous system fade away.

but now i crave the change again. not acute care, but outpatient and for some reason it feels like the next door to walk through. i need the solitude before starting the new job too. a couple of weeks with no pager, no responsiblities and waking up at my leisure.

change is good. moves things, shakes things up and get things moving. whether good or bad, i am willing to face the consequences.


and on a seperate note - i have noticed that when i made the decision out loud that i was making a change in jobs...this brings forth everyone who wants to tell you their opinion of why that job might be good or bad for you. OR even why that job would be good or bad for them. wtf. can't anyone just say "good luck and best wishes" anymore? let me just say now. i didn't ask for anyone's opinions. which is why i make my own chocies that affect only me.